Another day in the weight Loss World

Well I have been really trying to drink tons of water and watch all my calories. I have been trying to just drink a protien drink in the morning and some fruit befor lunch then I have nbeen trying to go small on lunch and I usually want a snack about 3pm ,Then I am trying to eat on small plates for dinner.
I have been Exercising when I can, today I did the 6 day slim exercise. I wanted to walk but it is about 107 out side so I just did the video

Well I made it

Well it is time for bed and I made it through a nother day , I will have to say I cryed a bit at dinner time in the shower. I just feel some times this will never end, but it always does and i start over the next day. I exercised also with the little girls, and they just love it. So tomorrow it's off to farm and then a b-day party and I hope that the day goes well. At least tomorrow I will not have the girls in the swather with me , I can think and pray a little more. I do feel today was a ok day and I am happy with that!!! God is good to me.

day 2 "fasting"

Well I have almost made it , I am not feeling very well, but oh well . To day I sat in the swather and just thought about the strength God had to fast for so long, I just makes me cry to think of the strength he has, and how little I have, I have to say thougth it did help today having to be in the swather and not around the smells of the kids food.

The 2 day Fast

Well, I have roped in my husband to help me do a 2 day fast to try to get on track and stay on track, I hope all goes well, I am sure that the evening will be the hardest part!!!! I am ok so far but it is only 1pm of day one 36 more hours to go

Falling off the band wagon

no fun , did'nt even make it a week, lets start over here!!!
tomorrow I will try slim in 6 and hope to make it , I need this, and I hope that my husband will help me, I cant do this alone!! Right now in my life I feel kinda alone and I miss my family, I cant quit get things together, I really want to suceed at a healther life style!!! I eat out way to much, but I do it because it is a socal thing for me to see other people and also to try to waste a little bit of the days out here in the country

Day 3 I Bombed it

Well lets say to day was horrable!!
I ate jerkey and an apple for breakfest
2 granolla bars
6 inch sub,baked chips,cookie, lunch
taco salad dinner

I always bomb Town days, I always mess up ,then I am upset with my self for the rest of the day
I also hurt so bad from the exercise , that I just can barly walk every far , I tryed to take my girls for a wlk to feed the ducks in town , and I could barely move, up the hill, my calfs are just so tight and on fire!!!!
Well , I know tomorrow is a better and a new day!!!!I hope I get it to gether and sleep better tonight

Evening Time

Well i ate one tortilla, black beans and turkey meat, and bell peper..
I have to say I am walking with a hobble and a little limp, I am telling you Jillian {the biggest loser} really does kick butt!!!!!!!!!
to day I did my measurments
waist 43
bust 42
thigh 28
hip 46
arm 15
bust 42{ after 2 breast reductions};(
weight 215
I think that I will do my measurements once a week

It's the Torture hours 3-9pm

Well lets see, I ate a zone bar for a snack,then my 3 children and I exercise to Jillian 30day shred again. I have to admite that 1/2 way through it bothe days I cryed a little , because, I hurt and I just was so mad at my self that I was so out of shape. I look at my children and just feel so sad, that they are running circles around me and I feel like I am about to die. Well I hope that I dont give up.

Lunch time!!!

Well, I had a great lunch , it was a t the restrant though, and I had ack salad wrap, It was so yummy, but I think that it had to much mayo in it, so I just I kinda messed up, I just ate half, because I was not so , sure. Next time I better just get a salad, I just hate eatting salads, over and over again

A new day

Well it is a new day , and man am I sore, that exercise vidio kicked my butt . Well here we go , I hope I make it!!! For breakfest I had eggs and ck

Night Time

Well , it is night time and ready for bed, The girls and I had to move some equpment to the house from the farm tonight. It helps me so much to stay busy, when we got home the girls wanted to do the exercise tape again, I love that they like to jump around with me!!!!!! It is great fun to watch

Well I hope tomorrow goes well: God is my Strength.................
Weight Loss does not come for free.
Oh and by the way, my husband is awsome.

I hope as I lose weight I learn more to trust in the Lord, and feel his presence !!!!!

the last meal

Hahahah , I hate the 4-9pm time it is always when I mess up.

I had a chesse stix and some plain chicken for a snack and for dinner I had a pork chop, sweet potato and a salad!!!!!

I hope that I can make it through the rest of the evenning with out a mess up

I think that I need to post some incouraging bible verses

So Here We Go !!!!!!!

Well to day I started my day with Chicken and egg whites, and Jillians 30 day shred , I was great to watch all my girls get in with me and exercise. We had fun!!!!

For lunch I had a salad and a cup on beef noodle soup
and tea

I am addicted to diet soda {diet Mountaindew} Help

Why I want to lose Weight

I have so many reason I want to lose weight , but seem to have so many excuses now to !!!I have made a list of a few reasons I would like to lose weight

1 I would like to be more healthy{I have type2 diebities}

2 I would like to look the part at my job{I am a photographer}

3 I would like my children to see that eatting unhealthy is not good, and teach them better eatting habits

Wow, So where do I start

Ok , so this has to be the worst picture ever, but this is who I am and this is how much weight I need to lose!!!!!I had my daughter take this picture and I had just rolled out of bed

My goal with this weight loss story is to have a spot to vent to , and also, a place to admit my down falls with out judgement, just encouragement.